I get it now. 

I now understand why you rush off from those meetings. I now get why you’re dashing out the door by half 4. 

I get it now. 

I’VE GONE BACK 2 DAYS A WEEK WHICH I’M THEN INCREASING TO 3. IT’S SO DIFFERENT BEING A WORKING MUM. MANAGING YOUR PRIORITIES BUT MANAGING THE GUILT TOO. WHY DO PEOPLE NOT WARN YOU ABOUT THE GUILT????!! 

That drive to work was just the worst. Rationally I know I had to go back – weddings don’t pay for themselves but I didn’t expect to feel so guilty. 

Then there’s the guilt for going back part time. Because you know before pregnancy you were that co-worker that was in early and staying late but now you’re clock watching from lunch. 

How can I be smashing motherhood and smashing work if I’m doing both part time? The truth is I don’t have the answer about the guilt but I do know there’s nothing like being reunited at the end of the day. That moment when they see you.

I get it now.