I Tried Really Hard Today, Baby.

Hey baby, I tried really hard today.

I googled a good recipe off all the things you like to be baked into a pancake.
You threw it on the floor,and left me to clean it up after giving you some cereal.

I tried really hard today my baby, to plan a day that was fun for you, naps and play dates with your favourite family and friends. I skipped my breakfast to get us there on time.

You refused your naps and cried through your playdate. We had to leave.

I tried really hard today, we nipped to buy you the next size clothes-I downloaded your favourite film on the iPad and bought you loads of yummy snacks.

You lost your temper about being in the pushchair, you threw your snacks on the floor of the shop, everyone was staring. We didn’t manage to get your new clothes.

Oh my baby, I tried really hard today… I tried so hard to refrain from tears as I tried to bath you.

You didn’t want to be bathed, but you needed to and that’s a mamas job. 

Baby… I’ll try hard again tomorrow. I’ll try hard again the next day. And the day after that. Because honestly if we get one day where you go to bed and you say “night mommy love you.” Then me trying hard is really worth it. 

If one day you eat your food and say, that’s delicious. It was worth it.

If one day you pick out one of your new t-shirts as your favourite. It was worth it.

And to see your smiley face when you go on a playdate… IT WAS WORTH IT.

I tried really hard today my baby. Sleep tight.

Written by Bethany Dempsey at BD Blogs.